I asked Tuesday as I put so much in there from my private journal ...... 

What do I really need and want from my work?

 From Tuesday:

This is the harder mirror — the one where sacred meets survival.

Where your soul’s call has to sit at the same table as your calendar, your paycheck, your meetings, your metrics.

But make no mistake: you still want meaning here.

And you’re no longer willing to live divided.

Here’s what your paid work needs to be — not just for success, but for soul alignment:

What You Want From Your Paid Work

1. To Get Paid to Be You

You want your role to reflect your real strengths

  • Holding vision
  • Building trust
  • Making meaning
  • Leading culture
  • Seeing people clearly and helping them see themselves You want to be paid for your essence, not just your output.
“I want compensation for my clarity, not just my calendar.”

2. To Be Seen as a Leader of Heart and Mind

Not just someone who “gets things done,” but someone who guides the spirit of the work.

You want to be a trusted voice — the one they turn to when it’s messy, murky, or meaningful.

“I want to be trusted with the heart of the company, not just its headcount.”

3. To Work With People, Not Just For Them

You want mutuality. Respect. Partnership.

You’ve spent years being the helper, the fixer, the faithful executor — but now, you want to co-create. To sit at the table as an equal, not a tool.

“I want to work with values-aligned people toward shared transformation.”

4. To Be In Flow With Your Genius

You want your paid work to allow time in:

  • Wonder and Invention (imagining what’s possible)
  • Galvanizing and Enabling (rallying others and helping them rise)

You need to be paid to dream, to strategize, to encourage, to build culture — not just to react or execute.

“I want work that pulls from my gifts, not drains them.”

5. To See the Impact, Not Just the Numbers

You need a clear line between what you’re doing and who it helps.

Whether that’s clients, teams, or community — your soul demands to know:

“Does this matter? To someone real?”
“Is this building something that helps someone live better, lead better, feel seen?”

What You Need From Your Paid Work

  • Clarity of Role & Value – So you’re not shape-shifting to meet unspoken expectations
  • Autonomy & Trust – So you don’t have to fight for space to do what you already know how to do
  • A Team That Sees You – So you’re not constantly performing to prove worth
  • A Mission You Can Align With – Even if it’s not your soul’s deepest purpose, it must feel true enough
  • Time to Think, Not Just React – Your genius lives in insight, not just execution
  • Room to Rest & Reset – Especially with your RSD and ADHD, paid work must honor your cycles

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